Hey Everyone! This pregnancy is flying by. I wanted to share my first trimester experience with you all. It has been similar but different in a lot of ways. The first trimester tends to drag a little more because of nausea and exhaustion, but it is amazing to see how the human body changes when it is growing a baby.
Like last time, I am traveling to Chattanooga to see the same midwife, birthing at her home. Being my second pregnancy, I’m not as clueless this time around so after finding out I was pregnant, I asked if we could wait until 12 weeks to have our first visit since that is a more accurate week of hearing a heartbeat on a doppler. It was the longest 12 weeks of my life. I had a lot of fear and doubt this pregnancy. Satan knows when and how to attack your weaknesses and he definitely tried during my first trimester.
My first pregnancy I was clueless about so much. I think my main focus for my first pregnancy was just learning and preparing for an unmedicated birth and what my body can do. Now that I know so much and have become more aware to situations around me, fear flooded my mind constantly. I was physically miserable if I was nauseous, but as soon as my nausea would lessen, I would be mentally miserable with thoughts that I was doing something wrong and what if my baby wasn’t okay. Spotting is such a normal occurrence in early stages of pregnancy, but with Kate I didn’t have any. This pregnancy I did. It wasn’t much but it was more than last time so fear took over. I had nausea and would cramp from time to time. Let me just say right here DO NOT GOOGLE! I did, and google does not provide peace. Anything different from my last pregnancy, made me question if everything was okay. I constantly had to remind myself not to worry. Worrying only robbed me of my peace and accomplished nothing.
Our thoughts can be our worst enemy. I struggled with my own thoughts the entire first trimester. I would talk to God so much to stop my mind from thinking too much. Even though I was doing pretty much everything by the book and similar to my first pregnancy, the thoughts would take over. Keeping myself busy allowed me to think about other things rather than dwell on something I have no control over nor any truth to base my thoughts off of. One thing I’ve learned to tell myself is that I’m doing the best I know how and God takes care of the growth and development of what is going on inside. A piece of advice that I’d give is don’t hold it in. Talk with someone close to you that can listen and give you positive truth. It helped me so much to get out of my own thoughts and listen to someone’s encouragement.
My 12 week appointment finally arrived and I was so eager to hear the heartbeat. We took Kate with us to let her listen and let her be a part of as much as she can as her baby brother/sister grows in Mommy’s belly. Our typical prenatal routine is usually with a group of other moms due in the same month (which I love and will share some of our topics in the future). Our first prenatal, however, was just us. We go over all the paperwork and the routine of how the future appointments will be. Go over any questions we have and then check blood pressure, urine sample, and the baby’s heartbeat. My blood pressure was good (honestly I don’t know what is good or bad so I just go by what they tell me ha!), my urine sample was a little off from “normal”. Which like I said earlier, anything different from my first pregnancy gave me doubt. They assured me it was fine and they weren’t concerned, but I was so concerned about how to make it perfect and back to normal. After that, it was time to hear the heartbeat! The best, most reassuring sound you could ever hear. An instant relief.
Our first group session was actually the following week, so we made the trip back to Chattanooga for that. This time around its just me and one other mom in the group session. She is actually due in April. Due to my work schedule, being in the May group session didn’t work for me, but I’m excited about our group and learning together. Our first session was mainly about diet, exercise, balance exercises, like Spinning Babies, to help throughout pregnancy to stay comfortable and prepare your body for birth, and upcoming tests and screening that most of the time we have an option whether we do or don’t want them done. I basically opt out of anything I can. Most of the time if you maintain a healthy diet and exercise a lot of the screenings and tests become optional.
To sum up the rest of my first trimester, most of my nausea and tiredness went away around 14 weeks. I have found a lot of peace and comfort that God is in control of this pregnancy and the outcome of it and I am doing everything I can to insure a healthy baby. No matter what, I have so much love for this child already and can’t wait to meet him/her!
Here are some affirmations that helped me stay positive:
Everything is in God’s hands and its okay if its different from the first. Each child is unique in their own way.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat: or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, the body more than clothes… Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?” -Luke 12:22-25
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” -Philippians 4:6
I am worthy of this pregnancy, this baby, and a beautiful birth.
My body is full of life. My body is powerful. My body made me a mother.
To keep this post from getting so long, I’ll be sharing my must have’s and what helped me with nausea the most, next! If you are curious about things of pregnancy or unmedicated birth that you would like to know more, share in the comments below!
(13 week bump) I thought I would do better with bump pictures this time around, but honestly don’t feel like looking cute these days ha!